Joy in Mystery

It's been awhile, precisely one month on Friday since I jumbled a few new thoughts out of my scattered head and shared them with the probable few readers that actually take the time to read this.

But I'm ok with that. The significance of actually reading my thoughts aren't much...this is mainly used to write out any occurring thoughts that I find with any such importance to myself, or to others...or I just like to practice my typing and writing skills.

So I'll try to draw up a creative epiphany or story soon but for now all I find myself thinking of is tonight.

There was a girl caught my interest for once, and it's strange to me since I barely know her yet I felt like I found out parts of her personality. Plus I only noticed my slight interest due to myself rambling and feeling like a complete moron...

But what was compelling about this girl was her silence. She seemed conservative with her thoughts which only made me anxious to ask more about her, but I was afraid that it would draw attention to myself and my sudden interest to learn more about this girl.

Plus she was pretty...

So on a tangent, this only baffles me why I'm not so intrigued more by people that I have yet to befriend. I mean it's strange how relationships can develop. I have had friends that I hated the first time I met them, but then ironically we become really close friends.

But back to my main point, which was why aren't we more compelled to find out more about how amazing God made every single one of the unknown people. I guess it's a matter of pride, fear, and protection against our hearts or bodies...

A hidden truth

This is a poem I wrote awhile ago...I feel like I should share it now.

You tell me there's nothing wrong,
the problems arising are only another dimension,
a figment of our imagination, but I know better.
Your eyes glass a hidden truth,
a glimmer of hope, a light in the dark
an idea, a dream awoken during those restful nights.
But now your eyes are caught staring,
your dreaming stop, eyelids flutter to life.
You have finally awaken to a new reality.

I should be...

...Studying, but I not.

Or sleeping for that matter.

But God is stuck on my mind and I can't not focus.


God has been tearing at my heart, and I can't help but cry.

People that God loves are suffering

People that God loves need blessings

I can't imagine how God feels about the suffering world.

There's so much to give, so much to learn. My heart only cries out for more of God...


Acts is amazing...God is awesome...

The Enjoyment of math...

Man, that is one smart monkey...

For those that don't know, God has gifted me in the mathematics...I pick it up fairly easily. When I say fairly, I mean it probably be much easier if I didn't fall asleep in class or write blogs instead of studying...but thats just me.

Anyways, I'm taking Calculus 2...yeah crazy. But I have a test tomorrow so I'm a bit nervous although I'm figuring out everything. I've been changing my attitude about school and actually trying to pick up better studying habits...the way I try to picture it is trying to enjoy and understand the complexity the world God made...if only he made math and physics easier...

Grocery list...

I'm not really gonna get beer...although candy does sound good...

Ok I'm updating this and crossing out the ones I've done...
List of "Goals/To do's" for weekend:
1. Love people...
2. Finish C++ program..
3. Study for school
4.Talk to Reilly
5.Go Thrift Store shopping...
6. Hang out with friends...
7. Make a new friend!
8. Study Acts and spend time with my friend, God
9. Pray for people!
10. Ride my bicycle and play football!
11. See how my friend Elisa is doing
12. Ask Kendall Bachman to marry me...

Ok, last one is a joke...just to clarify since you can't really be sarcastic with text...

My Prayer...

Maybe my prayer has to do with the ending of "Face to Face" at the Stirring...maybe it has to do with seeing and feeling God's presence more and more often...maybe it's because of my constant striving for God's heart that I get so angry and anxious to share with how good God really is and just the freedom...

My prayer...that God's people would experience his love...that they would get moved by him and actually get to feel his spirit and have a relationship instead of just a simple hope or "blind faith" or no faith at all...

God...you are all I want and all I need...

District Sleeps...

...alone tonight...

Amazing day. So much accomplished...I woke up at 10:54 am...a little over 8 hours of sleep. Checked the space to the my...ate a bagel with cream cheese...was still hungry so I ate left over chinese food...

Sleep again at 12:30...didn't wake up till 3:30. I've been told I'm a pretty peaceful sleeper...except for those random times I talk in my sleep...but yeah, not even babies sleep as well as I did.

Most of the day consisted of reading and talking at Starbucks. I made another shirt, it took me about 1 and a half hours to make...I think it'll be the last one on a black shirt for awhile...at least for complicated designs...